Endpoint: Full-Time

(my good friend Sharon had an excellent point: there are negative endpoints.  I'm going to continue to use that term, but I think I should have substituted goals.  I mean we all have the same final endpoint, no?  I always want to answer the flight attendant's "what's your final destination?" with "that depends on the kind of life I led.")

I have met with, and spoken with, and read about several full-time girls.  They have no plans for surgery or hormones.  They seem to have no interest in going that final mile.

I know others who would love to go full-time but don't for good reasons ~ things like job or family, for instance.  As important as it is to be your true self all the time, there are priorities and there always will be tradeoffs in life.  See my post from Monday, or Stana's excellent explanation from Tuesday.

I believe full-time also offers the option of trading down: if there's a reason to not be your femme self, you could pass for male (or close to it).  I can imagine, if I were full-time, that would be difficult but doable.  When I travel with my son, my girl wardrobe and luggage is virtually non-existent, and that's hard.  Even switching back to pajamas instead of a gown feels weird.  But it needs to be done, so I do it.

Of course, there are full-time perks that don't trade down without planning... the same way that I have to plan to "trade up" to female mode.  My brows and fingernails, for instance, would be very different if I were full-time.

I'm not.  It takes a lot of time every day to get ready and I'm not sure I want to make a commitment to that every day of every week.  But in the event of the "perfect storm" (no family obligations, a job opportunity as Meg) I can see myself full-time.  My two-hour prep would probably be cut in half just by getting electrolysis or some other "permanent" hair removal and keeping brows and nails ready-to-go.  I'd also develop more of a casual wardrobe than I have now, and I'd be more familiar with the clothes I have, and know what works, and what I like.  And I'm sure I can get that makeup routine down!

I have no plans, but I can see it.

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Time to Get Off the Pot

I was poking around on the "HR self-service" page on Friday.  I was amazed to find this (make sure you check out the last item)

 I am not making this up.  I decided to click and see if it was really that easy.

 Well, maybe it WAS that easy.  I picked a date one year in the future and set gender to female!

I presume I can change my mind during the next twelve months.  I don't know if changes like this trigger a call or visit from HR.  Or security.

So I moved on to item 2 on the list: update names.  I selected "Edit" and...

I never thought about a middle name since I don't have one in male mode.  I was considering "Miss" since Meg was never married, but went with Ms.

After accepting the change I saw:

(I blanked my current name.)  And after I submitted that screen, I saw:

 So I've taken a big step.  This is a major change, and I can use this as an aspiration image ~ when I see my HR page, I'll be reminded of a goal.  A huge goal.  I'm not sure how I'm going to realise this result yet, but I have until next April Fools Day to figure that out.

:D

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