A couple of days later, I caught my manager alone in her office and reminded her of the discussion. She wasn't sure where the conversation was going and I pulled out a picture of Meg.
She asked "who's that?" and I admitted it was me. She said "no way!" and "that's your sister, right?" and other things that anyone attempting to pass loves to hear. When I finally convinced her it was, in fact, me, she said "was this for a costume party or is it something you do, sometimes?"
I really had no plan as to what I was going to say or how or how out I was going to be. But her question was so perfect that I said "it's something that I do, sometimes."
And I think that still defines my relationship with Meg: it's something that I do, sometimes.
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There are asymmetries: I'm apt to say to a t-friend "I can join you, but I'll be in male mode." I can't imagine saying that to civilian friends. If they know Meg (like my games group), they're going to only know Meg, and if I can't dress I ain't going.
I think this is my endpoint. But there could be reasons to shift my goal. One possibility: a several day Meg-immersion. I can cite two readers, one who said "after a few days in female mode, it was a relief to get back to male mode" and one who said "after a few days in female mode, I never want to go back to male mode."
Go figure.
My trip to California early next year, should give me a chance to try it...at least for a few days. I'll give you my impression after I get back!
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Meg -
ReplyDeleteBeing able to go to events in either boy or girl mode is great. But until you have been doing this for a year or two, I wouldn't bet on where you are as an endpoint (even if I think you are right). Instead, I focus on your comment - "there could be reasons to shift my goal." We don't know what the future will bring, and I like the fact that you have acknowledged the possibility that things will change.
Hopefully, you will get the chance for your several day "Meg-immersion." After I had my full week in "Marian mode", I didn't want to go back to boy mode - even though I am comfortable there. If you had at least one week where you had to go through the headaches of "Meg mode" without being able to switch back to boy mode, I think that you may have an answer to whether your goal will shift.
M
I think that this would be a fairly comfortable end point for me. I like being a father, husband, uncle, etc. I enjoy my guy buddies and my male pastimes. I am also set in my ways with regard to how I relate to the many people that I encounter on a daily basis.
ReplyDeleteAt the same time I would like more freedom to dress as I please, when I please and go where I please. It is a bit of a tightrope walk.
Pat
This is also my endpoint, or at least what is the closest to what I feel to be. Hugs. Betty.
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