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Please take my little poll.  Charity and I will be going to a t-event this coming weekend.  Should we repeat the matching dress routine?

My Birchmere Epilogue prompted a comment from Marian (whose post inspired my post).  She wrote about the dressing euphoria wearing off and dressing being 'normal;' I said, for me, it's still both euphoric AND normal.

In her comment, Marian said being Marian "would always be special, and better than being in drab. But I'm not sure if it would be as much of a high as it was when new."

I wonder if it ever reaches that point.  I wonder if I'd just not bother dressing if there wasn't the rush I feel now ~ but I think I would.  And I think I'd go further to keep that high.

That's why I'm looking for new venues and experiences.  I have limits to what I'll do (sorry, gentlemen! :D ) but I will keep crossing the great wall that surrounds my comfort zone.

I've mentioned before that wearing panties under my "normal" clothing was difficult the first time.  I checked my pants several times a day to make sure I didn't split a seam and someone could see (gasp!) panties under my pants!  Now it's normal.  At first when I'd wearing pantyhose, I wore socks over them, until I realised that if anyone could see over my sock they'd see I was wearing something hard-to-explain on my leg.  Tights are a several-times-a-week item now, in a variety of colours and patterns.  I always wear a cami under my shirt.  If my shirt will support it, I'll wear a thin-strap and/or lace cami.  If my shirt and cami will support it, I'll wear a bra under everything.  Today I'm wearing purple except for my black slacks and sneakers, beige cinch, and white bra: tights, lace cami with thin adjustable straps, panties, shirt.  Only the shirt comes from the men's department.

And by "support it," I mean I take a critical look at my shirt in the mirror and ensure I can't (or can barely) see my undergarments.  I make no effort to hide my tights.

Marian wrote, "[r]ight now, everything is new."  I try to keep everything new by doing something I hadn't done before.  Sometimes I wonder if I should go slower with new things so I can wait for the "normal" mindset to appear and then find something newer but I don't really control the rate of change.  I do things when they occur to me.  Well, that's not really accurate.  I do things some indeterminate amount of time after they occur to me.  Sometimes, I have to mull over whether my new idea is a good one, or at least a safe one.

I had a great time at the Birchmere.  I have an opportunity to go out this Sunday and next weekend, meeting new groups of people each time.  I'll impose on Charity to help with my makeup and wardrobe choices and I'm sure when I'm out it'll feel "normal."

And euphoric.

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